I have no idea what to do.

Currently, I'm in serious slump.
I'm tired of all the things around me.
I don't know why, when , what is caused this situation.
I think something or someone give to me a some object.
I need object, why am I doing work, developing, writting tips or articles.

Microsoft Visual C++ MVP Mr. Kenny kerr, he is really great.
He writes excellent articles on MSDN magazine, maybe submit every month.
Recent his article , http://msdn.microsoft.com/en-us/magazine/cc850829.aspx
it's really cool. His articles always make me suprise.

How could I be like him?

I think my problem is that I do only work for a money or a value.
So I have to make definite goal.
Like a submit an article to MSDN magazine or managing an open source group.
I'll make step by step.
First , I'll make open source group that network framework on the windows system.
Someday will be realize.